Divyambara devi dasi
Hare Krsna respected and dear Guru Maharaja,
Please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Your Divine Grace! All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
Honestly, I don’t know how to start my offering to You. I beg for Your mercy as I don’t even know how to glorify You.
Guru Maharaja, You are always engaged in serving Srila Prabhupada in every possible way due to Your attachment to him. Your life is completely dedicated to Srila Prabhupada ‘s service; You are extending Yourself to so many souls as a service to him. You have been giving mercy and association to so many souls by regular online classes since March 2020. The virtual Vrndavana yatra and seminars, such as, Sri Manah-siksa, Festival of the Holy Name (2021) are just a few examples of Your causeless mercy. You teach by Your own example, by showing through Your exemplary life the meaning of worshipping the spiritual master, and taking exclusive shelter of Krsna.
Guru Maharaja, You have been causelessly showering mercy on me since 2003. You are the only person in my life who has answered all my questions with all the patience in the world. Whatever I know about Krsna consciousness is all due to Your mercy. I feel very happy when I remember that I belong to You. During one of Your Hyderabad visits, I remember You mentioning that Srila Prabhupada knew the pulse of a specific disciple. Similarly, I understand that You know me and always encourage me despite my shortcomings and disqualifications.
In one of the responses to my email, You gave a few recommendations. Whenever I try to apply them seriously, I feel a connection to You and I feel happy. By Your causeless mercy, during the virtual Vrndavana yatra 2021, I was a part of the group of devotees translating Your yatra lectures into Telugu. That service gave me lot of joy. I could feel Your unconditional mercy when Your responses to my questions were personal since You even called me by my name while answering!
This year, I pray at Your lotus feet that I am able to attend in-person and continue my service in Sri dhama Vrndavana. While I was going through a lot challenges—emotionally, spiritually, and physically—due to unexpected reversals in life, somehow by Your mercy, I got to know that devotees are reading His Holiness Bir Krsna Gosvami Maharaja’s book “Realizing our empathic nature connected to Krsna.” I was a part of Her Grace Sri Radhika Mataji’s reading group on Empathic Communication and look forward to being a part of it again. It took me a while to understand the book but it was an eye-opener for me! I understood how I was misapplying the process of Krsna consciousness. I learned that my spiritual life is my responsibility and I need to take care of my needs, etc. I am grateful to You, His Holiness Bir Krsna Gosvami Maharaja, and Her Grace Sri Radhika Mataji for this resource. Mataji is very friendly and kind to me I am happy to be in her association.
By Your causeless mercy, I have been a part of the Gratitude monthly meetings since January of this year, which is facilitated by Her Grace Uma Mataji. I am happy to associate with devotees who are dedicated to You.
Thank you so much, Guru Maharaja, for Your causeless mercy in the form of resources, devotees, lectures, instructions, and everything! I pray at Your Lotus feet that I hear regularly and chant as a service to You, become sincere and genuine in applying Your instructions with my full heart. I pray to Krsna that I become a better devotee for Your pleasure.
I am begging You for forgiveness for all the offenses to You, made out of foolishness and inattention. May You please keep showering Your causeless mercy on me.
Your insignificant disciple,
Divyambara devi dasi