Vaidehi devi dasi

Dear Gurudeva,

All glories to Srila Prabhupada and you!

It’s your Vyasa-puja time again. Every time at this moment, I feel extremely emotional that time has passed too quickly. It seems like I haven’t finished my homework yet, but it’s time to submit it again, and I feel ashamed for not putting in the effort. At present, there is not much external change in my situation, mainly because my child’s affairs are troubling me.

But when I was in the most helpless situation, I prayed for your help – I meditated on you, and to my surprise, I received a strong response from you. I strongly feel in my heart that you are saying to me: You are watching over me, you pray to Krsna every day for me and my children and you have never forgotten me. This kind of feeling is genuine, strong and indescribable. I was deeply touched. I firmly believe that my spiritual master is my true refuge, he truly cares about my well-being, he brought me to Krsna and he always accompanies me during my most difficult times. This gave me confidence and strength gradually enabling me to step out of the shadows. I know that no matter what situation I am in, you will never give up on me and always bless me, which makes me feel incredibly grounded and warm inside.

Thanks to your kindness, I have received a lot of help from Godsisters. Jaya Radha devi dasi, Nandini devi dasi and so on have given me great care. I am extremely grateful to you, my spiritual master. I can only live up to what you have done to me by striving to focus my heart on Krsna and chanting well.

I offer deep obeisances to you, my spiritual master. Thank you, my Gurudeva! Happy birthday to you! Wishing you good health and smooth preaching!

Your fallen disciple,
Vaidehi devi dasi