Yasoda devi dasi

Beloved Guru Maharaja, my spiritual father,

Please accept my most sincere obeisances at your lotus feet, from your humble disciple Yasoda devi dasi. All glories to Srila Prabhupada and to your lotus feet!

Time flies, and now it is early summer. As my parents have grown older, many material aspects of my life have changed. My mother, Tusta devi dasi, is no longer in good health. I now spend most of my time with my parents. She often feels dizzy and has been diagnosed with heart disease. By the causeless mercy of Lord Krsna and the blessings of you, my spiritual father, her condition has improved.

Tusta devi dasi chants the mahamantra every day. Sometimes she does manasa-puja (offering within the mind) after preparing a simple vegetarian meal. Every morning and evening, she offers a lamp to Deities’ photo. Currently, I attend an online class for the elderly. After completing the beginner level of “The Taste of Love”, I will be promoted to the intermediate class and then the “Desire Tree” class. I am also part of the Jambavati Mataji’s group association. In a week, we will celebrate Lord Nrsimha’s appearance day. Jambavati Mataji has asked me to prepare two to three of Lord Nrsimha’s favorite foods and drinks.

Most beloved spiritual father, I have memorized the teachings and instructions you wrote to me in your letters at the end of 2017. Two of which I still remember by heart.

The first:”I finally understand that, in fact, your causeless mercy is my only shelter, and there is no other hope. Your holy name, this strong ship, is the only way to cross the ocean of material danger. After calmly thinking about these facts, I prayed to my Guru Maharaja for the holy name, an invincible ship, and he gave it to me out of his causeless mercy.”

The second:”Krsna, son of Nanda, beloved of Vraja! I beg you to love me. I am your eternal servant.”

I deeply feel a connection with you. I am subordinate to you, yet somehow, I find myself in adversity. Many enemies within my heart are trying to pull me away from you. Because of that, I cannot offer all my attention to you and the holy name. At the same time, I feel very deeply that you are my master. You are everything to me. My heart will never be satisfied without your association. Therefore, I earnestly implore you: I am troubled and suffering, and without your mercy, there is nothing I can do to get out of this captivity.

My most beloved spiritual father! These are my innermost feelings, as described in the confession above. I will always remember your teachings and instructions. I know you are connected with the soul of your humble disciple, Yasoda devi dasi. Please once again accept my heartfelt obeisances. I pray for your good health and success in all your spiritual endeavors.

Your humble servant,
Yasoda devi dasi